didn't do anything.. literally.. jay had to work and i only got like 2-4 hours sleep so i just been trying to figure out things on the internet.. sunday i took the final for wicca 1st degree which was in two parts and passed that course and then i took the test i have been dreading like hell in my college on the astrology birth chart thing.. got 100% on that.. and i can safely say i have become a dumbass since then lol.. i think i used up all my brain cells because everyone is having to explain everything to me slloooowwwwwlllyyyy because i am just not grasping it.. prob cuz i am so tired.. i didn't sleep much at all sunday/monday.. but anyways xmas.. gave our pets their presents.. gideon my black kitty liked the tunnel and the like tree thing that has things to bat at.. xavier pretty much flipped us off and walked away.. angel ate her bone in like 2 minutes it seemed and is carrying around her new baby.. i almost had 4 more dogs because when i was taking jay to work he thought he saw some abandoned puppies on the side of ellington pkwy so on my way back from dropping him off (hie hasn't gotten any better with the dizzy thing so i am driving him to work now) i got off and found.. wasn't 8 puppies like he thought.. there were like 4 huge angel size mutts (angel is a lab/boxer) and i am like uhhhh there is no way i can fit those into my car.. so they just stared at me stupidly which is prob comparable to my intelligence lately and i scared them into the woods.. i am thinking they were in a pack not dropped.. at least i am hoping.. anyways came home and watched something on dickenson and then eventually got on the pc.. then played around till it was time to pick up jay.. i was stumped on how to hide comments on ***** which thank the gods some one helped me =) because i was seriously getting irritated.. of course if i would focus on one thing at a time and not be all bipolar add'in with ten things going on at once i might accomplish something or hell even understand what i am doing.. jays grandmother gave us towels to match our bathroom for xmas.. jay forgot till now to call her about them but we didn't even get around to unwrapping them till late.. i swear time is crazy lately.. the last part of shawnas xmas present (yes i am still working on it.. tech difficulties and the funeral put me behind and i didn't get to see her either) i am stuck on till i find the coupon for what i need.. i had it then gave it to jay and then it miraculously disappeared.. grr.. then i ripped a cd to my pc and my media player ate it.. i swear half the crap i rip it doesn't list then i spend hours doing a file search and if it was a mixed one then there will be no file names etc etc and well i looked for like 15 mins and gave up so i gotta do that later.. i have my grandmothers flowers from her funeral and they aren't white roses but they are like a pinkish white so i am gonna take those and try to make the picture i want for the cover of my book.. that will save me from having to go to the florist for roses to later mutilate.. jays having a lot of health issues so we need to get him to the doc asap so we can have him healthy again.. doesn't help that its winter and he used to always get walking pneumonia every winter and it seems like its trying to hit him.. i have been trying for like two nights to figure out this stupid flippin website i bought jay.. i was going to use the mailing list feature to do my marketing for the couple of hundred double opt in leads i was given but i cant figure it out so i am gonna download a program from zdnet and hope for the best.. i tried several diff mailing websites and they all want the people to opt in.. well if they already have twice they aren't going to want to again.. so that wasn't working for crap.. so i dl'd a program and will check it out later.. yesterday i was so bored at xmas eve i took pics of myself in hopes of finding a new user pic since i am sick of the options i have.. i have a few i like but have no clue which to choose.. i am just thinking about posting them and having people vote for one.. it dawned on me today.. that we are going into 2008.. well there is an asteroid/comet thing headed towards earth that is supposively going to come close to hitting us in 08 and then will make its rounds around to hitting us in 2012.. then there is the mya's and their 2010 thing.. then i was watching this thing on the bible code that said the world would get hit by like a astroid comet thingie in 2012.. so i am not liking this at all.. its bad enough i have been depressed a couple  of days ago because the polar bears ice cap land is melting and i just picture them just falling into the ocean and drowning now i have to worry about comets and crap flying at me.. oh oh oh and on msnbc i think its mars that is gonna get hit with a comet/asteroid thing in 09 which gods only know if that will send crap flinging towards us.. i don't mind dying.. i just don't want to dying in like the destruction of earth.. but oh the up side edgar casey said we would last way into like the 35oo's and Nostradamus's (in the book they know is def his) he mentions predictions till like 56oo so sigh.. anyways.. tomorrow is grocery shopping and we have to go everywhere for that.. jay is prob going to make me my fav potato soup so i am happy.. later this week my family is gonna celebrate.. they didn't feel like doing it on time either.. my family is just pretty much f*ck xmas right now.. we weren't prepared before the crap with my grandmother dying and that just really threw us all out of whack.. oh and my parents might be fighting the will now.. they haven't decided yet.. i still haven't washed and put away my new dishes.. been waiting to have a day with some energy and space to dry the dishes with since when i did have energy the other dishes were drying.. i really want a freaking dishwasher =(  i have been in the writing mode lately.. been sending myself poems to look at later and i had started a story two weeks ago but i am at a block at it.. as soon as i get ***** more stable then i am gonna figure out what the hell to use as a example of a proposal that actually fits with what agents want and start that process.. my phone has been jacked up at home so i am solely relying on my cell which sucks.. they said they would fix it by xmas eve and well.. lol.. stupid at&t.. god i am so tired.. i have so much to do and no energy for any of it i might end up on going to bed early in hopes that i will sleep awhile but still get up early for shopping.. i dunno.. anyways to answer everyones question xmas was boring but we knew it was gonna so i am not upset about it.. i just wasn't in the mood period so its not like i missed it.. anyways i got crap to do..