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ok this is prob not one that is that unknown of but i figured this is a
drug a LOT of people are on so if i am going to try to do this drug of
the day thing i would start with this one..

this med has a
program that if you sign up for it you get emails with info and a
brochure and value card mailed to you.. the value card if for 25 bucks
off of every refill etc.. DO NOT be a dumbass like my hubby and listen
to the pharmacist and give them the card.. every where you read and
even if you call prevacid they tell you that the card is reusable until
the expiration date..

here is the link to the sign up part
https://www.prevacid.com/offers/landing.aspx

here is the link for info on prevacid the drug
http://www.prevacid.com/home.aspx

this is info based upon the amount you are taking from walgreens
http://www.walgreens.com/library/finddrug/druginfo.html?particularDrug=Prevacid&searchChar=P


this is a good site to find out info on drugs
http://www.drugs.com/

hope
this helps some one!! i use the card all the time till jay gave it to
the pharmacist that was being an A** over having to enter in the code
or whatever..

im startin a thing to where i will try every day to feature a Rx and how to save on it such as discount clubs to assistance.. today is advair 

Our Breathe Easier Program
may help you better manage your asthma and support your therapy with
ADVAIR. By signing up for this free program, you will receive:

Money-saving offers: 



If you have not used ADVAIR before – a first full prescription of ADVAIR for free^‡



If you use ADVAIR - a $10 coupon^‡ for your next prescription for ADVAIR, with more savings to come




 
 







Materials in the mail to help you better manage your asthma: 



Tips for living with asthma



Advice from asthma experts



Helpful asthma resources



Plus detailed instructions on using the DISKUS^® deviceclick on
http://www.advair.com/#
 
then click on the click here on the savings area and a pop up will come up for you to fill out..

here are some sites for additional savings or financial help for those who need it..

http://www.needymeds.com/drug_list.taf?_function=name&name=Advair%20Diskus

http://www.cdfund.org/about.html

http://www.healthwellfoundation.org/medications.aspx
(i personally use this one and i apply the money towards my insurance
copays)

http://www.geriatricservices.com/programs.asp

here are some sites with info on advair as a med

this is based on dosage
http://www.walgreens.com/library/finddrug/druginfo.html;jsessionid=EBDEBCCB093EC8EA6333A02F781F6E11.b_00?particularDrug=Advair

http://www.drugs.com/cdi/advair-diskus.html

if
i find out any more info on this drug i will do an update.. i take
advair and its the ONLY thing that works on me.. my asthma is very
severe so nothing will ever totally cure me but this is the only thing
that has given me ANY relief

well this is my last day on half dosage of adderall and i am dying.. i
cannot think at all.. i am like all over the place when i am trying to
focus on one thing.. i am like not able to complete one task before i
go to another because i start on ten.. and with my adderall at full
dosage i could do ten and finish ten.. i am like not finishing one.. i
am like trying to understand things and i am not.. i know its prob
simple too which irritates the shit out of me.. i hate looking stupid..
i hate acting blonde.. and i hate ADD... grrr.. i wish i never knew
what my iq was so that i wouldnt be feeling like i was not living up to
it.. sigh..

well i went home from my shrink appt on friday and slept till it was
time to pick up jay which was like 10:30.. only stayed up till like 3
then went back to sleep and slept like almost 12 hours then got up and
was busy doing laundry and stuff and finishing shawnas xmas present
which she liked =) it was a scrap book of the time we have been friends
from like when we first met etc till now.. we had been friends online
before we met so since we dont get to see each other much it was more
special.. i was working up till 11:15 and i was suppose to pick her up
from vanderbuilt hospital since she has a family member there.. jay was
having a day from hell so he was late getting home.. i got lost because
they are having like shift in the road lanes and it was raining and
right where i was trying to figure out if the road was merging or
shifting was where the road was. so i thought i would cut through.. got
us all over the place before i got to the hospital and then i thought i
was where she was at and i wasnt so i had to go around the block since
it was all one way etc.. anyways picked up shawna.. got food then
crashed at my house and i have been doing a little here and there on
here as i can.. i have so many people to comment back to and thank for
showing me love.. especially since i have been mia lately.. but i have
been able to sleep and that seroquel kicked my butt.. i guess the
amount i was taking before was like 50mg or less (if there is a lesser)
and i am on 200mgs so i took it and fell over. i am having to take jay
to work in the morning and hten take shawna back to the hospital then i
am gonna knock myself out again in the morning.. be more on my hours
awake then.. i prob shouldnt be driving the car but i have had a ton of
sleep in a short period of time and was doing fine other than the fact
that i forgot our car handles like ******* the rain.. expensive tires
but it skids or something i dunno but i was like sliding twice which
scared me.. anyways i am gonna try to slowly catch up and still get
some sleep.. my stats have gone crappy since i have been away so i
gotta figure out a happy medium.. my biz email account has over 800
emails and i have to open and click on them to get credit so they will
use the points to advertise me.. sigh.. oh well.. enough typing i gotta
do more clicking!!

the shrink says i have to snap out of mania and get some sleep asap of
he is putting me into the hospital to knock me out =(  he wasnt happy
to hear at my 2-4 hrs of sleep a night for like 2 months but he
definitely agrees i have bipolar lol.. i am getting yanked off my ADD
meds since that could be helping me stay manic BUT i have ADD so i dont
know what the hell we are gonna do about that!! i told him my
concentration has been for crap and well that could be due to both
(mania and/or ADD) so we're gonna just see which it is more.. so i may
never be medicated for ADD again which is horrid.. jay is like "Well he
doesnt know you very well if he thinks you might not have ADD" which is
true.. but i gotta do something.. so he gave me crap load of seroquel
to knock me out.. and if that doesnt work then hospitalize.. he asked
if had been in the past and i am like umm no.. but he says right now i
am so worn down i am like a danger to myself and so i am not allowed to
drive which i had to laugh at since i had the car all day or i wouldnt
have been able to see him.. which i almost got into a few wrecks so i
agree i need stay away from the wheel.. and there arent many meds left
that i havent already taken =(  he had asked what i had been on in the
past and i handed him my lovely list of meds that i have taken and
failed which is like a page long (typed at that) and i had been on
seroquel before to help sleep but that was like the lowest level and so
he is starting me out at 200mgs but can go up to 400mgs and if that
doesnt worked i am screwed!! i told my mom about him wanting to
hospitalize me and she totally ignored me and started talking about her
dog.. finally when she decided she wanted to talk about she said i
should do it.. wtf?? i told jay and he was for it.. so i am feeling
really loved right now.. =*(  but my mom thinks that i can go into the
hospital and be detoxed from all my meds and i will not be bipolar or
have fibromyalgia anymore because something will just cure me or
something.. which is totally insane.. i asked jay why in the hell he
thinks i should go and he is like "one it might help you get your
disability and two you havent slept.. i go to work you are up.. i get
home you are up.. i go to bed you are up.. i get up you are up.. you
need to get some sleep!!" which both are true BUT if i am hospitalized
then if i am asked in the future by like fibro docs they are just going
to hear the hospitalization and bipolar and that will like cut in half
the selection of meds i can be given.. kind of like how drug addicts
arent able to be prescribed like certain drugs etc.. well i am and have
been on a ton of the drugs that i would be nixed from.. at least this
is what i hear from diff places.. and that would suck since i have
absolutely no problem with drug addiction or anything.. never been
addicted to anything in my life except maybe sex =P  .. anyways i have
to like seriously get sleep or im SCREWED!!!!!!! oh the perils of
bipolar..

on other news.. me and jay got a letter from the
davidson county government blah blah that they had gotten hacked into 
or something and that our identity might have been stolen *head to
desk* i cant win.. well i just took meds to hopefully knock me out..

well it SUCKED... the reason?? well for one when i got there it was all of ten minutes before i find out that my aunt and cousin are gonna show up... if you know me or have read my blog long you know that i do not like my aunt very much... when my brother told all kinds of lies about me and got me disowned she just followed along and didn't even try to give me a chance... i grew up in Florida and was away from all extended family then we move up here when i was 14 and my mom tries to get my aunt involved in everything... at that time it was obvious she didn't want to hang out with  my mom but just did it to be nice... i was disappointed since i was always told that if we lived in the same state it would be fun etc.. so that didn't get me to liking her much.. she and her family always acted like they were slumming it or something when they came over.. anyways fast forward to like 2003-4 and every single freakin family thing we have she is there.. i would have to pay for myself and they would pay for her to come.. and of course now that my family had more money and was paying her way to go out to eat etc she all of a sudden wants to have something to do with my family.. my dad really likes my aunt and he is an only child so he wants her everywhere.. so you cant have any kind of birthday or freaking holiday without her coming.. now i understand that she could/should be invited to some of these things but when you have been told that you cant invite other people because it was just going to be family and that being listed as you and your family and hubby then i think i have the right to get upset when she shows up especially when they go out of their way to pay for her.. when she comes there is no hanging out and relaxing because all of my family is absorbed in making her happy that all of a sudden even my birthday party is like all about her.. so i wasn't happy when i heard that she was crashing xmas because of that AND the fact that the family agreed that we wouldn't buy them gifts and vice versa because some of us didn't have the money.. and they know i don't want to have no gifts for the people and then have to have them watch you give others gifts etc.. anyways.. i go straight to my mom and ask her why she was coming and that i didn't want her there.. this xmas has been screwed up enough because no one had it on the right day and with my grandmother dying etc every one was not in the mood etc so i was hoping that this would some how turn out good so i can think back on it and not remember it being so slap happy and chaotic.. well my dad is the one that invited her so i was stuck.. so then of course they were getting things ready because she was coming over.. my dad spent like an hour at the door watching to see when she was coming (she is NEVER on time) i got to talk to my mom some and i thought everything was going to be ok then they showed up.. everyone was talking to them and not to me.. i would try to enter in convo but then they would start talking about god and church etc to where i wouldn't have anything to say.. i don't know if this is how they are trying to get me to go back to their religion in some sick way of acting like if i wanna be with them and have something to talk about i have to convert or what so i just ignored and it was time to eat.. we eat and everything is fine during then.. my mom had talked to my aunt because she had found some long lost video that had an old movies of the family from back like 40 plus years ago that had been transfered to regular vhs.. and that they were going to watch them.. i was disappointed because i was hoping we would do something more fun but i figured that how long can this video really be?? so i am ok with it.. well my dad wanting to show off or something decided that they were going to watch a video of his christian colleges play.. it had nothing to do with anything about xmas and he has had it forever but we were going to watch it period.. i stay in the kitchen and talk to whomever is in there.. the kitchen is a part of the living room so its not like i left the room but the sound quality was so bad he cranked it up and any singing or music part blared out loud to where you would have to freakin cover your ears.. so for TWO HOURS i had to listen to people singing christian music BADLY and talking about how isreal is so important and they are chosen etc etc.. then there was the jewish dancing.. same routines i have done when i was on the team.. anyways anyone that has known me for awhile or read my blog for awhile knows that i have post traumatic stress disorder from the way i was raised because my parents like mentally screwed me up with religion.. if i breathed wrong i was going to hell.. every new years eve my family would make me sit and wait for god to beam us up because the world was going to end.. the police are all after us because the government is going to have concentration camps for christians etc.. i mean this is like 1% of the stuff i had to go through.. not to mention a paranoid bipolar father that would be abusive at the drop of a hat and go into a rage.. when i was a teen and they thought i was getting too worldly.. (i had made friends and was dating.. every time i made friends i was getting too worldly because i should only interact with family etc etc) they tried an exorcism on me.. so yeah i am JACKED up with religion and my childhood.. so here i am listening to church music and seeing dancing like i did when i was a part of the dance team at this christian college that my dad ran and i am like having total flash backs.. every thing that had ever been done to be in that time period which sadly was the happier of my life was a time that i was terrorized for my role in being a leader in things there and remembering the abuse to my friends i had witnessed.. and of course the crap load of freaking brain washing that was there since we lived on the campus that had the school.. (the retreat had a hotel.. apartments.. trailers.. duplexes.. a huge church that had balcony and could  hold a thousand or two people.. a resteraunt.. a conference center.. camp ground.. then there was like pools, canoing, basketball, tennis, playground etc etc you get the idea.. didn't even use cars because you could walk to all of this and we had a golf cart) so it was pretty much a cult i grew up in and although it was a happier part of my life because i was very active in everything and a leader in things and could run around and do whatever i wanted etc.. BUT my parents freakin told me of everything bad that was going on too.. i knew that the pastor of the church was having sex with everyone.. i knew what happened when this guy molested a few kids.. i knew who had a drug problem.. who had aids.. who was gay (that they were "fixing and curing with god" mind you) i knew EVERYTHING.. so i had to go day in and day out faking that i respected and stood behind the people i knew all their dirty little secrets and well.. it makes you resent the people and hate anything that comes  out of their mouths.. anyways visions and memories of abuse.. brain washing etc just flooded me and i tried to ignore this blaring for over two hours.. that was pure torture and trying to hold it together was horrid but i made it.. and then they decide to do gifts and i thought they were going to wait till after my aunt left.. nope.. so we hand out gifts and there weren't enough chairs or room to sit on the floor unless you sat behind the chairs and so i was opening presents and yelling thank you to people and they couldn't hear me.. everyone was talking to everyone else and literally forgot about me.. i just ended up sitting there thinking ok eventually they will  turn around and talk to me and i will get to say thank you etc.. mind you i do not feel good and have a horrid headache so moving around was making me sick and standing and sitting were excruciating pain so i just sat there.. finally they asked me about mine and of course my aunt and cousin bought me things.. and i had nothing for them.. we are debt free but since we became that way in august we have had at least 100 plus bucks in unexpected bills hit us every single month till november which was 400 out of no where.. so there was no money for gifts other than the immediate family.. so that made me feel crappy.. then i was like ok now presents are over they will prob play the few minutes of the home videos and then we will get to do something else and i can put a chair in front of the tv to sit in so i can be a part of the group.. well they decided that they were going to show my aunt a xmas program they did at their church last sunday.. which again led to talk about their religion and this wouldnt be that much of an issue at all BUT THEY SPEND LIKE SEVERAL DAYS A WEEK WITH EACHOTHER.. there is no reason why they have to ignore me and talk about everything that i cannot talk about while i am there.. they were even planning on what they were going to do plan wise for stuff for church that sunday.. like i said i understand that the church and everything is important to them.. every time i visit half my visit is nothing but talk about their church etc and i try to talk about it with them but then i get remarks made towards me that i shouldnt have an opinion since i dont believe the same way.. well then dont flippin talk about it in front of me or pull people aside for 30 mins at a time to plan something for the church to where i am left in a room alone for a half hour the once every two months i get to come down.. and since i knew the new video would be at least an hour and a half if not more and it was already getting later than i usually stay over there (i always leave early because if i am having to drive i dont want to get tired out since driving drains me for some reason or because jay has to drive nad he cannot drive in the dark since he had night blindness.. so it was way past when i usually leave so when they started the tape and started to ignore me i just was like ok i am going home.. so i left there.. feeling totally screwed up.. totally ignored.. my mom even told me that if i was a christian then i would like xmas.. umm.. no.. i am against the commercialization of it.. the part that people max out their credit cards then never pay them off year after year.. the part that people just wanna see what all they can get etc etc.. and i HATE xmas music lol.. and well once you take out the music and presents there isnt much left and what is left is just normal hanging out that i would do at any time.. so that is how i feel about xmas.. nothing to do with religion.. i mean yeah i dont like how everyone makes it to where you feel like christianity is like so demanding or the opposite which is the commercialization but whatever.. i always go and do everything with them and that i have done all my life.. i never demand that anything is altered or anything its just not a major holiday to me.. but going there hoping that this would make it as xmas goes or that it would at least make me feel that xmas had actually happened was shattered.. i was about in tears from all the flash backs i was having and i had to drive home.. by the time i got home i just headed straight to bed thinking that if i slept i would be able to at least stop all the memories that were flooding me.. and the fact of how i was treated.. that is why i didnt blog this on friday night.. i didnt want to think aabout it.. i dont want to think about it now but everyone was asking how it went so i just wanted to state it once adn then hopefully forget that anything ever happened.. so i cant wait for this year to be over.. it has been good to us as far as the money part goes (debt free) even thoguh we have had so many unexpected things that cost out the butt happen.. every holiday has been miserable because of either jay working or my brother starting things (which he was on good behaviour) or my aunt crashing.. she ruined my birthday.. thanksgiving was chaotic.. halloween jay worked and shawna fell asleep (not mad just stating shawna lol) all those bbq weekends holidays my bro was an A** and totally had fits during it.. jays bday we didnt do the renaissance fair which we have done for years now.. new years is gonna be ruined because i will be all alone literally.. 2 friends died.. my grandmother died and screwed my family out of everything.. i could go on and on for ever on this.. but i will state that when i do visit my family without a holiday i do get treated well and everything goes perfect.. just throw my aunt it and it goes all to hell.. not to mention i was in the hospital twice in one month.. jay 2 times this year and is having serious health probs and because of it being the holidays our doc is mia.. but in the last year i also wrote both books.. so i have no idea if 07 was a good thing or what..

so i have been super depressed the last couple of days.. and so has jay over his health.. i cannot stress how worried i am about his health since i am used to him being the healthy one.. but at least all the areas he is having problems i have pretty much had in the past so i will be able to understand what he is going through and test etc.. just don't wish any of my health probs on anyone.. anyways i am so behind in my online things and i was working on shawnas gift (me and her haven't had xmas so i didn't have to rush to make it which was a godsend compared to all the crap i have been dealing with) and then i realize ONE piece is missing.. a piece i HAVE to have.. sigh.. and i have been sleeping good.. so good i don't want to wake up.. but anyways i have to get busy.. 

didn't do anything.. literally.. jay had to work and i only got like 2-4 hours sleep so i just been trying to figure out things on the internet.. sunday i took the final for wicca 1st degree which was in two parts and passed that course and then i took the test i have been dreading like hell in my college on the astrology birth chart thing.. got 100% on that.. and i can safely say i have become a dumbass since then lol.. i think i used up all my brain cells because everyone is having to explain everything to me slloooowwwwwlllyyyy because i am just not grasping it.. prob cuz i am so tired.. i didn't sleep much at all sunday/monday.. but anyways xmas.. gave our pets their presents.. gideon my black kitty liked the tunnel and the like tree thing that has things to bat at.. xavier pretty much flipped us off and walked away.. angel ate her bone in like 2 minutes it seemed and is carrying around her new baby.. i almost had 4 more dogs because when i was taking jay to work he thought he saw some abandoned puppies on the side of ellington pkwy so on my way back from dropping him off (hie hasn't gotten any better with the dizzy thing so i am driving him to work now) i got off and found.. wasn't 8 puppies like he thought.. there were like 4 huge angel size mutts (angel is a lab/boxer) and i am like uhhhh there is no way i can fit those into my car.. so they just stared at me stupidly which is prob comparable to my intelligence lately and i scared them into the woods.. i am thinking they were in a pack not dropped.. at least i am hoping.. anyways came home and watched something on dickenson and then eventually got on the pc.. then played around till it was time to pick up jay.. i was stumped on how to hide comments on ***** which thank the gods some one helped me =) because i was seriously getting irritated.. of course if i would focus on one thing at a time and not be all bipolar add'in with ten things going on at once i might accomplish something or hell even understand what i am doing.. jays grandmother gave us towels to match our bathroom for xmas.. jay forgot till now to call her about them but we didn't even get around to unwrapping them till late.. i swear time is crazy lately.. the last part of shawnas xmas present (yes i am still working on it.. tech difficulties and the funeral put me behind and i didn't get to see her either) i am stuck on till i find the coupon for what i need.. i had it then gave it to jay and then it miraculously disappeared.. grr.. then i ripped a cd to my pc and my media player ate it.. i swear half the crap i rip it doesn't list then i spend hours doing a file search and if it was a mixed one then there will be no file names etc etc and well i looked for like 15 mins and gave up so i gotta do that later.. i have my grandmothers flowers from her funeral and they aren't white roses but they are like a pinkish white so i am gonna take those and try to make the picture i want for the cover of my book.. that will save me from having to go to the florist for roses to later mutilate.. jays having a lot of health issues so we need to get him to the doc asap so we can have him healthy again.. doesn't help that its winter and he used to always get walking pneumonia every winter and it seems like its trying to hit him.. i have been trying for like two nights to figure out this stupid flippin website i bought jay.. i was going to use the mailing list feature to do my marketing for the couple of hundred double opt in leads i was given but i cant figure it out so i am gonna download a program from zdnet and hope for the best.. i tried several diff mailing websites and they all want the people to opt in.. well if they already have twice they aren't going to want to again.. so that wasn't working for crap.. so i dl'd a program and will check it out later.. yesterday i was so bored at xmas eve i took pics of myself in hopes of finding a new user pic since i am sick of the options i have.. i have a few i like but have no clue which to choose.. i am just thinking about posting them and having people vote for one.. it dawned on me today.. that we are going into 2008.. well there is an asteroid/comet thing headed towards earth that is supposively going to come close to hitting us in 08 and then will make its rounds around to hitting us in 2012.. then there is the mya's and their 2010 thing.. then i was watching this thing on the bible code that said the world would get hit by like a astroid comet thingie in 2012.. so i am not liking this at all.. its bad enough i have been depressed a couple  of days ago because the polar bears ice cap land is melting and i just picture them just falling into the ocean and drowning now i have to worry about comets and crap flying at me.. oh oh oh and on msnbc i think its mars that is gonna get hit with a comet/asteroid thing in 09 which gods only know if that will send crap flinging towards us.. i don't mind dying.. i just don't want to dying in like the destruction of earth.. but oh the up side edgar casey said we would last way into like the 35oo's and Nostradamus's (in the book they know is def his) he mentions predictions till like 56oo so sigh.. anyways.. tomorrow is grocery shopping and we have to go everywhere for that.. jay is prob going to make me my fav potato soup so i am happy.. later this week my family is gonna celebrate.. they didn't feel like doing it on time either.. my family is just pretty much f*ck xmas right now.. we weren't prepared before the crap with my grandmother dying and that just really threw us all out of whack.. oh and my parents might be fighting the will now.. they haven't decided yet.. i still haven't washed and put away my new dishes.. been waiting to have a day with some energy and space to dry the dishes with since when i did have energy the other dishes were drying.. i really want a freaking dishwasher =(  i have been in the writing mode lately.. been sending myself poems to look at later and i had started a story two weeks ago but i am at a block at it.. as soon as i get ***** more stable then i am gonna figure out what the hell to use as a example of a proposal that actually fits with what agents want and start that process.. my phone has been jacked up at home so i am solely relying on my cell which sucks.. they said they would fix it by xmas eve and well.. lol.. stupid at&t.. god i am so tired.. i have so much to do and no energy for any of it i might end up on going to bed early in hopes that i will sleep awhile but still get up early for shopping.. i dunno.. anyways to answer everyones question xmas was boring but we knew it was gonna so i am not upset about it.. i just wasn't in the mood period so its not like i missed it.. anyways i got crap to do..

ok i was raised until 14 in florida.. except for one year when i lived
down there again i have been up in tn for like ten years.. i don't do
well with cold.. i despise snow.. etc etc.. and i HATE wearing a
jacket.. so when i had to  pick jay up at 10 i had a sleeveless thin
cute shirt on (i was taking pics of myself in hopes of finding one i
like) anyways i think that oh i will only be out in the cold for like a
minute as i run to the car.. never dawns on me to wear a jacket.. ok
its freakin cold but i can handle that and i see my front window looked
like it has moisture on it so i use the windshield wipers to wipe that
off but it makes it smeary.. i figure ok its prob on the inside so i do
the heat vent thingie and put it on full blast.. but then i was down a
little ways from my house on my street but i had to park cuz i couldnt
see anything.. so i spend a few more minutes using the windshield
wipers and having the thing spray window wash on my window and blasting
the heat and nothing was clearing it up.. then it dawns on me..






its frost on my window..




so
i had to get an ice scraper and scrape the window which by then one of
my neighbors was on his porch smoking and watching me with flimsy shirt
and jeans with a scraper blasting rap music.. hmm.. anyways i feel
incredibley stupid now lol.. but in my defense i usually always have
jay with me and he scrapes the window.. lmao.. so yeah i am blonde..
and the temp thing is obviously from the florida part of me.. god i
hate this state and winter!!!

Happy holidays (whichever one that might be) and i hope everyone has a great new year in 08!!

Love, Hugs & Kisses
Ruffie

and hopefully '08 i will be able to keep up with everyone better..